This week I really got a dose of the inspiration that I needed. Thursday was my 3 month MSaversary, and that day I was really feeling down about it. Not depressed or anything, just frustrated. It’s difficult to know that I am doing everything I can to fight this, but it’s not necessarily making a difference. And I can’t get an MRI every day to check to see what’s going on up there, so I fluctuate between fearing that things could be getting worse and hoping they’re getting better but not knowing whether they are. They say “you won’t die from MS, but you will die with MS,” and some days more than others that’s a tough thing to swallow.
Anyway, Thursday I went to see my friend Maria in Atlanta… she is an old friend from MA who now lives in Atlanta between missions. We haven’t seen each other since I moved to GA (12 years ago), so it was great to catch up.
Maria also really gave me the inspiration that I needed on a tough day. I told her that I was praying for acceptance of my MS, because I just felt like it was too much to ask to be cured entirely. But Maria reminded me that nothing is too much to pray for and that I shouldn’t underestimate God by assuming that it would be too much to heal me. Actually, what she said was a lot more articulate and impassioned than that, but that was the general message.
Later that evening after I got home, I happened to flip to Romans 5, and it really echoed for me what Maria was saying while also helping me a little bit with the “acceptance” part.
1 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.
6 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. 7 Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. 8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
If God would send Christ to die for me, surely he could cure my MS… how wrong of me to be anything but hopeful! And until the day that happens, hopefully through His inspiration of those who are working to create a cure for all of us, I can use this experience to grow in my faith, my perseverance, character, and hope.
SECOND MINI-ENTRY – I FORGOT TO POST MY WEEK’S WORKOUT RECAP ON FRIDAY. AND FORGOT AGAIN YESTERDAY. OOPS.
It’s been such a busy few days that I am late on my usual weekly workout update for last week. I suppose it doesn’t really matter much because that is only here for me. It’s not like any of you are sitting at home waiting for me to post how many miles I ran on which days.
RECAP (My workout weeks run Sat-Fri, so this is from last Saturday through til Friday and doesn’t include this weekend.)
Saturday – 3.1 miles
Sunday – Day Off 😦
Monday – 3.1 miles
Tuesday – 3.1 miles
Wednesday – Day Off 😦 (Thought I would work out after work, but ended up working a longer shift than usual)
Thursday – 3.1 miles
Friday – 3.1 miles
Total miles for the week: 15.5 miles
Total miles for July as of Friday: 60.4 miles (I did 3.1 yesterday to bring me up to 63.5, but I don’t think I will be able to get in 6.5 today to reach my goal for the month.)
You may notice the lack of Jillian Michaels on this week’s recap. I’ve been working a ton of hours at the retail job and also getting ready to go back to school, so I’ve been doing the bare minimum each day. I know it’s frustrating, but I would be kicking myself on Wednesday if I went back to school without feeling prepared. Hopefully I can jump back into Jillian’s workouts as a before-school activity each morning!